Name? Secret (here)
Nicknames? Esaelpimaohw (here)
Age? 27++
Single/Taken? Single
Are you happy with that? Yes at this moment
How many kids do you want to have? 0 (last time thought of 4)
What would you name them? Little Ming, Yang, Ying, Jie
Do you have a best friend? Yes I think
Are they a guy/chick? Guys
Do they like you more than a friend? Not sure
Do you drink? Occasionally
Do you like to party? Depends on hanging out with who
Do you smoke? No
What do you smoke? NA
Have you ever been in LOVE? Yes
Do you believe in love? No (Family love yes)
Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes
Who was your last boyfriend/girlfriend? XXX
Are you happy that you are no longer together? Yes
Do you hate him/her for that? No
What is your favorite band/singer? Blues / David Tao
What is your favorite song? Keep Your Head Up (recently)
What is your favorite movie? Titanic
What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? Vanila
What is your favorite color? White
Who is your best friend? YYY
Do you know everything about them? No
How many siblings do you have? 3
Are you happy with that? So-so (preferable to have a brother)
What are you listening to right now? Nothing
What was your last drink? Plain Water
Who was your last kiss? XXX
Who was your last hug from? Auntie
What is your favorite food? Curry Mutton
Do you have more guy/girl friends? No so
Would you date any of your friends? Don't know
Is this survey getting on your nerves? No
What was the last thing you watched on T.V? Drama series
Do you know who E.T is? Don't know
Do you believe in aliens? Yes
Do you believe that all cheaters will always be cheater? No
Do you believe in dying because of lost love? No
Have you ever had someone close to you die? Yes
What was his/her name? Granny
How did you know one another? Life
Have you ever "Jump shake your booty, Jump, Jump shake your booty"? No idea
What kind of cell phone do you have? Smart phone
Who was your last txt from? Ex-colleague
Your second? NA
Your fifth? NA
Your ninth? NA
What did you last txt say? NA
Your second? NA
Your fifth? NA
Your ninth? NA
Yesterday night I did measure up my body. Oh my gosh....I gained extra inches on my waist and thigh.
I have to admit that I am getting older now. Therefore, it is easier to have extra length on those body part which shouldn't to be large nowadays.
I tell myself I should start to control my food consumption and do more exercises now. I need to look at it seriously this time.
I do not want to have an ugly body. When am I going to own a body like him? I noticed about his cool body in the latest TVB drama - on call 36 hours.
羅仲謙(1984)
Today I was forced to accompany my father to go to my relative house for lunch - spring roll.
Obviously I don't like to meet people. The reality is I am uncertain in tackling their questions about my relationship.
However, if you want me to list out people who I wanted to meet and talk one to one, here is the listing and ranking.
1. Mr. Y
2. Dad
3. Mr. S
4. Mum
5. Ms. W
6. Mr. T/ Mr. H (too far)
*A replacement post for yesterday
It was a breaking heart day again as I had to attend my friend's wedding dinner. Why do I say so? Well, I was going to meet friend's who know me and also my ex-girl friend. A bit awkward to answer their questions about my relationship matters. It did happen and I could only smile and say that we were no longer together. A friend, Ms. F kept on asking about the details and suggest to introduce her girl friend to me. I was really don't know how to response and I said I was tired. Luckily she was the only one asking about it. However, it was a bit awkward to answer in front of my good friend, Ms. W who declared her love to me before.
Actually, I was late for the dinner. As expected, the dinner was not begun even though I was late for an hour of the stated time in the invitation card. Everything was still fine at the beginning. However, I was suffering from a bad stomach ache during the dinner. I went to the washroom for a couples of time to ease the problem. At last, I chose to go back home at the mid of the wedding dinner.
When I was planning to sms Ms. W and Ms. F that I left the dinner due to my sickness. Ms. F called me to ask about my condition. I was grateful to receive her call and I felt that I still like her. I like her because of her intelligence and care. I thought of to be together with her. However, I think we should just to be good friend because I felt sorry to her and I don't want to make her disappointing again. At this moment, I think I am suitable to be single and alone.
Today I join a "single man" gang. We have 5 of us all together. We went to have our drinks at a cafe at night. In fact, I just come back from the tea chat for some times.
Accidentally I met my ex-company/internship supervisor/manager. He is in his 40s, married. He was waiting for his son from a tuition class and going to fetch her daughter later.
(Perspective: Normal, successful, complete MAN)
At the same, I noticed that my "single man" gang, 2 of them are in their 40s. Of course they are single and available. They were free and joining us for the tea and chat. They wore short pants and T-shirt.
(Perspective: Weird, lonely, incomplete MAN)
It makes me worrying of becoming a single man. I just think I could have a mate. A soul mate! Where are you, buddy?
*A replacement post for yesterday
Single!?! What a big deal! Like!!!
"一个人的行李" - 戴佩妮
心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
反正天若真的塌下来
我自己扛
天气好or天气坏
有什么好紧张
反正下一秒钟的我
开始开始流浪
我要一个人去东京铁塔看夜景
我要一个人去威尼斯看电影
我要一个人去阳明山上看海芋
拍偶像剧
我要一个人去纽约纯粹看雪景
我要一个人去巴黎喝咖啡写信
我要一个人的旅行
一个人透透气
dodo do dodo do ..
向右转or向左拐
有什么不一样
反正每一条未知的路都有未来
我和谁在谈恋爱
有什么大惊小怪
反正下一秒钟的我
早已早已离开
我要一个人在希腊梦见苏格拉底
我要一个人的通宵看完鲁迅的背影
我要一个人呆呆的在浴缸里
思考阮玲玉阮玲玉
我要一个人的北京探望孟姜女
我要一个人的书局和志摩谈情
我要一个人的旅行
一个人彻底～
心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
一个人的旅行一个人的行李
一个人的旅行一个人的空气
一个人的旅行一个人到底...
*A replacement post by last 2 days
I was quite moody last few days. Career path consideration and future plan were again alarmed me. This was really an annoying issue.
Therefore I was trying to find someone to grumble to. Well, he is my chat friend. I knew him from grindr last time. We never meet face to face before. He is quite an experience and interesting guy in his early 30s who is nice to be chatted to. We chatted for quite some time about my dilemma.
Eventually, both of us did wank off together via the mobile phone chat apps. In fact, I did enjoy slightly throughout the session but I just had a guilty feeling after the wank. I did not know what was the reason. I just felt that I should not do this kind of act. This was so "gay".
This guy consoled me not to think in that way. He told me that it was just together of boys' fun. Perhaps, he was correct. We did not do anything wrong. We just released our stress and had fun, that's all!
A bit regret to see our politician's act. They never ever apologize for their wrong deed.
She is still trying to defend herself. Actually, she just need to apologize. That's all. People will forgive her finally. Do remember, apology and resignation. Dare to take the responsibility!
Her defense text:
国阵士拉央国会协调官黄糩璊文告
我在2月18日马华总会长拿督斯里蔡细历医生与行动党秘书长林冠英的辩论会上的提问，由于时间上的关系，当时无法明确传达我原本要传达的信息，我承认我当时情绪激动，以至引起各方的困扰与误解。
我欢迎任何人对我本身言论的批评与纠正，但是请不要以羞辱性、侮辱性，尤其是具有性骚扰意涵的文字、移花接木的图片或视频等方式，对我做出人身攻击。有心人盗用我的家人和孩子们的照片放上网，这已经严重伤害到我的家人和孩子们，他们是无辜的。任何的批评，请只针对我一个人而来，请不要伤害我的家人。
其中包括面子书上， “它要红，我们就支持它 ！让它红遍全马！！！”、“马来西亚景点”等面子书专页，由于贴出我的家人包括孩子们的照片，已经严重对我及家人的安全和声誉构成威胁。另外，“我就是jessie ooi不要再讲我坏话”的帐号则涉嫌冒用我及我家人的名义发表虚构言论，涉及诽谤和污蔑，对我的声誉造成严重破坏。我对网络上出现针对我的部分言论、文字、图片或视频，涉及污蔑、恐吓、捏造事实等刑事犯罪成分，在这段期间，我也收到数以千计的电话、短讯和留言，其中带有恐吓、侮辱、性骚扰等内容，同时也声称要杯葛我家人的公司，为了保护我个人以及我家人的人身安全和名誉，我已在昨日根据具体案例前往鹅唛警区总部报案，我和家人必定采取必要的法律行动，以保护我和家人的安全。
对这类污蔑性言论的追究，也是为了广大马来西亚人的利益，人们可以行使言论自由做出任何批评，但绝对不能以抹黑、污蔑和诽谤的手法，更不能冒用他人名义来做出欺骗行为。如果我们继续纵容这类污蔑性言论的泛滥，那么在未来将有更多的受害者，使我们的网络充斥着暴力、诽谤和侮辱的语言。
关于媒体报道我关闭个人面子书专页，其实在有关辩论会结束后，由于我仍需要出席多场活动和工作，而当时就有人把我的手机号码贴上面子书，以至我的电话接到了超过1000通的电话，而我实在无法一一应对，也对正在工作的我造成干扰，而在逼不得已之下暂时关闭面子书专页。但较后我已重新开放我的专页，因为我愿意面对人民的批评与质询，也愿意聆听人民的心声，同时清楚了解必须把事实说明白，才是民主社会的原则，决不会畏惧逃避。
在此，我也要对当天在辩论会上提出的问题做出几点说明和澄清。
由于当时总会长蔡细历与林冠英辩论的内容涵盖民联所有州属的表现，因此我当时才对林首长所说的，民联减轻人民负担且同时有能力赚很多钱的言论，提出两道问题，即：
一、我于当时发表有关“门牌税”课题时，由于提及我是半个槟城人，导致各阶层人士误以为我指向槟州。敢怒敢言，敢做敢当是本人的宗旨，当时我并没有清楚指明是哪一个州，且在时间紧迫下用错了一些字眼，以致让有心人士借题发挥。其实我当时所指的是雪州民联政府曾在2008年大选时承诺执政后将降低雪州门牌税等等，但后来并没有兑现承诺。这是雪州民联引起人民不满的课题。新闻报道指我说的是槟城门牌税，是不正确的。
二、由于槟岛土库街缺乏泊车位，导致人民在顾虑自身安全的当儿，唯有选择把车辆非法停在银行前，因此本人提出是希望林首长能够设法解决这个问题，而非光是让他管制下的执法人员进一步向人民施压，锁车轮后再拖走人民的车辆。许多人民宁愿承受中罚单的风险，都不愿冒险在夜间走长途路到银行办事，因而增加人民的负担。
我在辩论会当天所提及的拖车问题，确是我和我先生亲眼目睹，而且这类锁车事件在报章已经报导过和面子书上也有网民反映过。
虽然我没有把问题完整的传达，但并不代表有关问题不存在，也不代表民联州属没有出现问题。事实上，我所说的，都是确确实实存在的问题，而有心人士却只选择性攻击我的言论，误导网民也把矛头指向本人。
我们马来西亚人，都希望能为下一代打造一个更民主、更理想、更美好的家园，这也是我在当初决定从政的信念。人生没有十全十美，需要终身学习，我在政治领域是位女性年轻人，我将会把这次事件当作让我走更长远的路的一个经历，以及一个让我继续为民服务的动力。
*A replacement post for yesterday
I am wondering, am I too lonely in recent days?
I was looking for a leisure chat since last two days. I reinstalled and logged into grindr. Actually, I just wanted to find a guy to talk to, that's all. Perhaps, I wanted to talk to someone who has the same dilemma as me.
Unfortunately, most of the guy in grindr will only chat with you if you have a display photo. Anyway, I did discover something and I had a chat with a "discreet" guy.
Firstly, I discovered that one of my secondary school friend is in the grindr list. Bravo! He had his face photo uploaded.
Secondly, I did chat with the discreet guy. We did exchange mobile number for further chat via a popular text apps. Hardly believable that we did exchange our face photos at last. How dare I? Haha......not a big deal right? Just a face picture. Of course, this was just for normal friendship only.
*Grindr - Find gay, bi, curious guys for free near you (I chose to use this apps because of the words "curious" - I was lonely and curious!)
Well, I am not aggressive in looking for more money. Indeed I am.
The problem is I am still care about people's view on my non-aggressiveness for money? I felt unhappy and I was trying to fight back for my point of view. I cannot control myself.
This is really a big knowledge to be learned. How do I achieve this? I know this is really difficult. I am telling myself to learn how to handle it. I must to have a high EQ. Why do I need to care so much. I just want to live in a natural way. A harmony way with "Tao". In fact this is one of a good philosophy among Confucianism, Taoism, and Buddhism. I am quite interested to read more about them. I should improve my life with these philosophies.
*A replacement post for yesterday
Pictures say thousand of words. This lady is very popular now. She should ask her question in a proper manner since she is a political party representative. How does she make people to trust her in solving problem in a rationale way in future? I doubt so......
Besides, her fact was a bit ridiculous. Hopefully she can learn from her mistake this time. Think carefully before you can talk convincingly.
“林首长，我是半个槟城人。你刚才讲说，你要减轻人民的负担；第二， 你们赚了很多钱。我要告诉你，你误导人民！因为门牌税起价，所有东西都起价！”“包括，十点半晚上上，我亲眼看到两次，十点半，整条路已经没有车了，但 是，你还叫你们的执法人员拖车！导致在那边打架，头破血流！”“这个，你要怎样去解释？这叫做减轻人民的负担吗？”
I am trying hard to slim down recently.
I am worried that I am going to gain more fat. I can felt that most of my clothes become tighter nowadays. I really do not want to be a fatty guy because I did notice one of my previous company's supplier sales engineer was gaining his weight. Seriously it is really ugly.
Actually, when I first met him, he was quite an attractive guy with average body line and cool formal wear. Unfortunately, the last time I met him, he had a big belly with the similar formal wear. Frankly speaking, it was really ugly to have a belly to be seen from the tiny and tight shirt.
Perhaps, I was eating a lot of food during Chinese new year. I notice that my appetite is greater now. Therefore I tell myself, I should control my craving. Besides, I am trying out the foot massager and slimming belt which were bought a few years ago. Hopefully it works for my slimming project. (I am just too lazy to go for a jog, gym workout wise no budget at this moment :-P)
*A replacement post for yesterday
How frequent do you clean you personal computer?
In fact, our personal computer is one of the dirtiest thing in the house. We use and touch it almost everyday. However, we seldom aware of the cleanliness of it.
Can you imagine, we are repeatedly touching on the keyboard and mouse which are full with dust, bacteria and gems. Sometimes, I did not even wash my hands before having my meal after using the computer. This means that I was eating all those dirty elements all the while? A bit disgusting when thinking those gems which cannot be seen with our bare eyes are magnified.
Therefore, I was taking my initiative to give my personal computer a thorough cleaning. Now it is hygienic and crystal clear now. Haha!
I just come back from a movie with my ex-colleagues (including my best buddy of course).
We went to have our dinner in the shopping mall before the movie time.
Well, the movie title is Wedding Diary and this is a movie which is acted by Aniu, Elanne Kwong, Kara Hui, Marcus Chin, Shaun Chen and Chris Tong. I think this is a typical Malaysian style movie with multi dialect(Hokkien, Cantonese, Mandarin) conversation throughout the movie.
Not bad. A lot of funny scenes and takes in this movie. It has a touching and sad scene almost at the end of the story too. I was being touched and felt wanna cry but I did control myself from rolling my tears from my eyes.
I thought the movie director is Aniu initially but the director is Andrian Teh. Besides, now only I know the sexy and charming actress is from Hong Kong, 江若琳.
*A replacement post for yesterday
I am not sure what was the reason, I felt very tired after working yesterday.
Yesterday was Valentine day. Everything was as usual. I went to work and back home after work. I had my dinner and watched television. However, I went to bed very early at about 9pm.
I was being awaken by parents for a couple of times. This was due to they were looking for some items like camera in my room for today's neighbour country island trip. A bit annoying at that moment but I did hope parents can enjoy themselves in the trip. Happy holiday!
I am still indecisive in various aspects.
What should be my future career? What should be my future relationship? What should be my future life?
I want to be a professional educator. I want to have a understanding person to be my life partner regardless a guy or a lady. I want to make my parents to live in a jovial life.
However, I noticed that I am still wandering in making all of these to become realizable. Seems like I am running away from the problem. I chose not to do anything at this moment. Perhaps I refused to sacrifice something. It is really a tough decision.
I am gaining weight. Perhaps, I ate and drink a lot during Chinese new year.
It is time to keep fit now. However, I noticed that it is quite difficult to control my food consumption nowadays. I get hungry easily.
I should think a solution in controlling my body fat. My shirts and pants become tighter now. Well, I have to control my diet and I must start exercising now. Good for health and good for look.
There is a news report in the newspaper via facebook which caught my attention today.
Sigh, it has been more than 50 years we got our country independence. What a pity is the involved party is a teacher. It is really disappointing. Human......is time to change. Come on! We should live harmoniously. Please don't hurt other people feelings with your racism and insult words. We are one country one nation one Malaysia.
Here is the news report in mandarin:
國內 2012-02-09 19:01
（森美蘭‧芙蓉9日訊）沒帶課本上學，6名女中生投訴被教師辱罵“妓女”及“回中國”！
芙蓉市郊一所中學的6名中五華裔生，日前向家長投訴遭該校一名馬來女教師辱罵她們是“妓女”，還叫她們“回去中國”。
根據女生的家長透露，由於上課時間表突然更改，導致6名女生上週二（1月31日）上學，沒帶到馬來文課本，結果引起馬來文女教師的不滿。
據說，女教師在班上發飆並破口大罵：“如果不喜歡馬來文就回去中國”、“你們就像妓女”等，被罵的女生都不敢作聲。
據瞭解，當天除了6名被罵的女生沒有帶馬來文課本，班上大部份同學也沒有攜帶馬來文課本。
家長投訴沒下文
女生的家長上週五向校長投訴，惟校長表示這是小問題，之後不了了之，家長隨後向沉香州議員吳金財反映。
針對此事，萬茂州議員黃美美受詢說，校長日前已和吳金財會面，並承認確有此事，所以，校方將安排女教師向家長及學生道歉。
另一方面，吳金財受聯絡時表示，女生的家長將於明天再去學校，與校長和女教師會面。
（星洲日報‧獨家報道：俞泳樂）
*A replacement post for yesterday
Recently, I have to study back the subject which I was quite afraid of last time during my university time.
Indeed, it is really a tough subject. We have to understand the machine behaviour before we can teach the machine what to do. Furthermore, I have to understand the typical human thinking as well before I can teach them on how to teach the machine? It seems complicated right?
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Confused! Headache! Scary!
I am wondering what is happening to me. I shouldn't think like this.
Recently, I think of my buddy a lot. Perhaps I missed him. I am eager to find out what is he doing at the moment. I am interested to have a text chat with him. Unfortunately, he doesn't own a smart phone(can whatsapps) and rarely see him online.
I am attracted to his personality. He is such a big brother of mine. He is hardworking, caring, understanding, steady and cool. In fact, I have to admit I like him but I am unsure what kind of feeling is this?
Is this a brotherhood like? Is this a friendship like? Is this a intimate relationship like? I don't know. Anyhow, I really enjoy to spend my time with him.
I am confused now. What should I do in order to sustain the relationship? I am wondering about his feeling as well......This special friendship is really important to me.
I just watched the movie "Happy Together" acted by Tony Leung and Leslie Cheung. This movie is really audacious as it was filmed since 1997. Tony Leung and Leslie Cheung are very sexy and indeed both of them are excellent actors.
The story line is......
Yiu-Fai and Po-Wing arrive in Argentina from Hong Kong and take to the road for a holiday. Something is wrong and their relationship goes adrift. A disillusioned Yiu-Fai starts working at a tango bar to save up for his trip home. When a beaten and bruised Po-Wing reappears, Yiu-Fai is empathetic but is unable to enter a more intimate relationship. After all, Po-Wing is not ready to settle down. Yiu-Fai now works in a Chinese restaurant and meets the youthful Chang from Taiwan. Yiu-Fai's life takes on a new spin, while Po-Wing's life shatters continually in contrast.
*A replacement post for yesterday
The 15th day of the 1st lunar month is the Chinese Lantern Festival. However, I did not celebrate it.
I went to my ex-colleague house for the Chinese new year last visit. We played gin rummy, drank and ate a plenty of food and drink. I just reached home half an hour before. It is early at 3.30am now again. I have to replace my sleep again tomorrow.
*A replacement post for yesterday
We had our new house keeping on yesterday. Parents and I plucked off the messy grasses and swept the dirty dirt in the house.
Besides, we did investigation and survey on other houses renovation in that surrounding area. We had a conclusion that we are going to have a horizontal pattern grills to be installed as it looked great. Futhermore, it must be white colour metal grills.
*A replacement post for last 2 days
Recently I did some research on feng shui due to my new house is readied for renovation and moved in. Here are some tips extracted from internet about kitchen feng shui.
>Don't locate the kitchen in the front of your home or facing the front door - This kills any positive chi attempting to enter your house.
>Don't place the kitchen facing a bedroom - The chi energy of the kitchen is yang and conflicts with the yin energy of the bedroom. This kind of configuration results in family members constantly being sick.
>Don't place the sink beside the range or oven - This water element extinguishes the beneficial fire energy.
>Don't place the refrigerator beside the oven or range - Same affect as the sink.
>Don't locate the oven or range in the Northwest sector known as "Heaven's Gate" - Good luck energy resides in the Northwest direction and is the last place you want to set on fire.
>Don't locate your kitchen in the center of your home.
>Keep pantry doors closed at all times.
>Don't place your kitchen below an upstairs bathroom or facing a toilet - Water and waste destroys the auspicious chi.
>Make sure the living room, dining room and kitchen areas are all on the same level.
>Don't leave brooms and mops out - Keep these stored in closets.
>Don't let dirty dishes pile up.
>Shape of kitchen layout should be a rectangle - Avoid a round-shaped kitchen.
>If a laundry area is located in or beside the kitchen don't allow dirty clothes to pile up.
>Don't hang a towel through the oven handle.
Ops, I heard the rooster's sound just now when taking my shower early in the midnight.
The reason is I went to visit my ex-colleague houses. Oh my gosh! I lost in gambling. RM55!!!
I know I do not have the gambling luck and skill. I shouldn't play.
Perhaps I shouldn't think about lose or win. This is important......as taught in the high recommended book for life code. Haha!
Anyhow, I have fun together with my dearest ex-colleagues. I have my bro together with me as well. Thankful and great!
*A replacement post for last two days
Today's technology is really sophisticated and advanced. Can you imagine that thousands, millions and billions of electronics components are integrated in a small chip. That's why we have plenty of handy gadgets nowadays.
Developing an integrated circuit is like making a layer cake that we need to build layer by layer. Doesn't sound interesting?
I just had my training on integrated circuit layout development. It was fun and indeed a new experience for me because I did not learn it during my undergraduate studies.
I am really hate this kind of feeling.
I know you are worried. However, I don't know how to react to your statements and questions.
I know someone was getting a girl friend through introduction. I know someone about my age is going to married. I know someone was having their children and etc......
I know about it but I don't think I want to have a girl friend at this moment. I don't think I want to get married at this moment. I don't think I want to have my own children at this moment as well.
I know I can't say anything that will break your heart. The only thing I can do......I remain silent.
I know I enjoy my current life. I am happier to be independent than bonding to someone at this moment. I hope you can understand me. Don't give me unnecessary pressure. Don't give pressure to yourself too! I love you!
*A replacement post for yesterday
The service from the share trading agency of one of the local bank was quite poor. There were no personnel in the office at about 1.30pm during working day. So, do you think this kind of agency is trustworthy?
Eventually, I met up with a staff at about 1.45pm. I left a message to her so that my service agent(my school's friend as well) will assist in settling my request. It is really disappointing as no feedback until now. Oh my gosh!
*A replacement post for last 2 days
It was the Jade Emperor birthday's prayer at the midnight of day 8th/9th of Chinese new year.
Generally this is the festival celebration of Chinese Hokkien only. It was a merrier night as a lot of people burned firecrackers from 12am until 1am around my residential area. Besides, I noticed that there were a lot of people released the "Kong Ming" lanterns up to the sky. At the same time, a lot of joss/paper money were burnt during the prayer ceremony.
Three of the activities above, we did one of them. Therefore the pace in my house was not as merrier as other houses. Besides there were only parents and me at home for the celebration. At that moment, I thought of having my own family to boost up the merrier pace. However, I don't think this is a wise choice because the short happiness may brings long painful life in the future. I will never get trapped again.
