Mum is still unstable. She weeped during praying at home today.
I don't know what can i do. I am really sorry. At this moment, I just cant bring in a girl into my life to fulfill your need.
Aunties, please stop trigger my sadness. Mum, I hope you can be understanding. I manage to plan and handle my own life. Please don't focus on me. Let's everything goes naturally, ok?
*A replacement post for 27 Jul 2013
Mum cried again. Perhaps she thought of dad due to the preparation for the next day - 100th days prayer (we did it earlier).
She cried when she was folding cloth, sweeping floor and preparing vegetables. My heart was painful. I hope it was not because of my attitude on the previously day that made her sadder. I was really sorry but I was really sad too. I only can keep everything to myself.
*A replacement post for 26 Jul 2013
Mum talked to the girls and asked them to make friend with me in an awkward situation. I quickly walked away. One of the girl does not have boyfriend and she is about my age. It was told by my aunt to mum previously. In the back home journey, I told mum I won't go to the temple anymore as she did that awkward moment to me. We had a bad time throughout the night as it was really quiet among ourselves.
I am not a 3 years old child anymore. At the night, I cried again. I watched back the Korean drama again. This incident really expanded my loneliness. Please don't trigger the lonely me who is deep inside my heart!
"It is because that ME is very lonely, lonely until wanna die......"
"是因为那个我很孤独，孤独的要死。。。。。。"
*A replacement post for 25 Jul 2013
I continued to watch Triumph in skies 2.
As told by my friend, it was full with nudity scenes. In fact it was true when it reached episode 7. There were many pilots in the drama who showed free sex or open relationship. It was damn bad.
*A replacement post for 24 Jul 2013
I had a blood donation for third times.
However, this time was a bit painful and my arm was a bit numbness during the donation. Luckily the nurse helped me to release a bit on the pressure on my arm.
The nurses and officers were not professional as they used their smart phones a lot when they were on duty. The blood types test officer (Indian man) even gave a cotton with small portion of blood remaining to me. It made me worried on the safety of this blood donation process.
*A replacement post for 23 Jul 2013
Mum went to sister's house again.
Mum seemed not so well as she yet prepared dinner even it reached 5pm. We supposed to go home at the time. She thought of cooking at 6pm as normal when I backed home.
Therefore, it was expected to have a traffic jam on road.
*A replacement post for 22 Jul 2013
I began to watch TVB drama - Triumph in the skies. I watched via streaming on a website. There were old and new handsome and pretty pilots and stewardesses for this new series.
Francis Ng looked really old at the first few episodes. Julian Cheung's baby face made him looked as young as 10 years back.
*A replacement post for 21 Jul 2013
I tried to clean up dad's old phone's data. There were some photos and one audio file (about 3 seconds) in the phone. Unfortunately the phone only had infrared for data transfer. Therefore I only can obtain the photos by snapping them with camera. Audio file was failed to be transferred as the phone's speaker was spoiled.
Nieces were fighting and noisy as usual when they were together.
Alarm was triggered as I switched on my air-conditioner that night. Something wrong with it again......
*A replacement post for 20 Jul 2013
Saturday Life
1. Washed cloth with washing machine of course!
2. Bought vegetables, fruits (for 15th day prayer), Chinese herb and etc at morning markets (2 places).
3. Bought prayer stuff (red ball cloth) for the coming week praying.
4. Ate lunch at vegetarian restaurant.
5. Mopped floor for first floor only.
6. Ate dinner at home with sister's family.
*A replacement post for 19 Jul 2013
We went to Buddha temple for theory class. The speaker was very humble as she said that she was not good in giving theory speech. However, I thought she is really knowledgeable and indeed a good speaker. Her sharing was excellent and easy to understand. She looked older nowadays as I met her a few years back.
Harmony was the topic for this theory class.
*A replacement post for 18 Jul 2013
I went to eat "Mee Sua" lunch which cooked by mum at sister house.
We tried for alternating highway which proposed by mum during back home. Unfortunately, there were still a lot of cars on the journey and we reached home almost at the same time as usual. However, I paid more for the "sucking" toll.
1) Task was given/informed by superior. It was so fast.
2) The report was obtained. Life is unpredictable. That was the only time and that was the final time.
It was considered......
Good or bad?
Lucky or unlucky?
I assumed it was the best way god had decided and path us.
*A replacement post for yesterday
There were fun activities and discussions in the training. It was quite nice to know each other(colleagues) better through the training. I felt my superior is quite a nice guy.
*A replacement post for last Momday
Problem solving training
-met religion's friend
-vegetarian food provision
-new insights for problem solving
*A replacement post for last Sunday
We went to have our breakfast in a vegetarian restaurant. Our main food was "roti canai" - flat bread. The special one was the roti canai John which rolled with salad vegetables.
Later, we went to the dentist clinic. The clinic is really beautiful and modern. Post wisdom tooth extraction does not need stitching as told by sister-in-law experience for this round. I was wondering what happen to the wound?
*A replacement post for last Saturday
Housework performed
-washed cloth and socks
-tidied car porch
-renewed road tax
-bought lunch
-swept floor
-folded cloth
-cooked dinner
*A replacement post for last Friday
I went to watch Pacific Rim with my cinema "kaki" and my buddy. Before the movie, I ate dinner with my buddy.
This movie was a bit "fake" as it looked like those children shows - Ultraman/Bajahitam who fighting with the monster/raksasa. Well, the main actor and actress are both sexy.
*A replacement post for last Thursday
-Online at sister's house
-Facebook chat with students
-Whatsapp chat with regular chat guys and occasional chat girls
I went to have my dinner with buddy just now.
We met his secondary school friend in the restaurant. It seemed like his friend was a bit awkward. He hardly joined in our topics. A guy who ate vegeterian food in weekday but pampered himself with nice food in weekend. Haha.
*A replacement post for yesterday
Ate lunch with colleague who I introduced her for the job.
Ate dinner which the noodles cooked by sister.
Read book and slept. Damn bored as internet was not available at sister's place.
*A replacement post for last Monday
I went to watch Man of Steel. The movie was quite nice. Many action scenes. Many things were being destroyed. Many lives were killed.
My bank debit card "buy one free one" promotion was cheating. It always has terms and conditions. They can changed the availability at any time. I thought of getting cheap tickets but ended up had to pay normal price. Too many tactics in today's business.
*A replacement post for last Sunday
Bank-in-ed insurance claim cheque with machine.
Played with nieces at home.
Sister's insurance agent came to settle the nominee issue for her and mum as well. From the conversation, I felt this agent was a bit unethical. She was a little bit of backstabbing another agent. It was too bad.
*A replacement post for last Saturday
Morning:
Washing-machined clothes, moved vases, cut grasses, removed plants, cleaned up car porch......
Afternoon:
Sent mum to buddha temple, shopped at low-end mall, bought bulbs and rake, ate cheese cake at secret recipe (OMG, no free drink during weekend for tea break...cheating), fetched mum home, packed dinner, spent time with sister's family and mum......
*A replacement post for last Friday
I went to settle Dad's Zing Card issue at one of the bank branch which is located in a shopping mall. The bank executive only managed to help me to forward my problem to the card centre. I spent for about an hour over there. Issue was still pending and I had to wait for their call.
Nowadays, vegetarian food becomes common and I found Beyond Veggie by secret recipe in the mall. The food was damn expensive but there were still a numbers of customers. I wanted to order the distilled water (listed 50 cents in the menu) but the waiter told me it was out of stock. I was suspecting they purposely told me so. They brought a 500ml mineral water for me which cost RM2.80. I rejected and ate only my Ala-carte. I just felt it was not worth to spend in that way.
At quite a late night, our insurance agent brought the claim cheque for mum. Perhaps, she sms-ed me that she might bring the cheque for mum in the previous day but she did not turn up. Indeed she was quite a nice and responsible agent.
*A replacement post for last Thursday
Finally, I had successfully programmed the microcontroller for the LCD display of PICDEM2 board with assembly language. I did not feel of extreme satisfaction. I just felt I'd got my job done only.
I try my PICDEM2 with C language. It is easier. I still need to refresh a lot about C language.
Today mum's friend came to visit at night. She is quite a nice person.
*A replacement post for yesterday
I had a neck pain. Perhaps I was too concentrate in typing my blog during work time.
*A replacement post for last 2 days
My friend started to work in my company. Mum suggested to invite her to stay with us at home. I felt it was not convenient. Lucky i did not ask. I used to think of asking.
*A replacement post for 30 Jun 2013
I stayed at home to test alarm but it still cannot call out the back up numbers.
I mopped the floor, ironed cloth and brought niece to garden as she cried to go home.
We ate at home.
*A replacement post for 29Jun 2013
Nowadays, vegeterian business was performing.
Lunch and shopping.
Night went for a talk about the life of a comics author. Niece was noisy.
Later we went to big aunt house.
*A replacement post for 28 Jun 2013
A bit headache, a real headache. Perhaps it was due to the testing on PICDEM2 with assembly language for LCD display.
I went to Buddha temple and they played the "guanima" stories. A bit unbelievable.
*A replacement post for 27 Jun 2013
I went to eat pizza with colleagues. The vegeterian pizza but with onions.
We had meeting with white men. One of my colleague was really good in talking. Perhaps she had her English education.
*A replacement post for 26 Jun 2013
Highway traffic was very smooth. I went to auntie house for dinner and she kept asking me to eat. She is very hospitality.
*A replacement post for 25 Jun 2013
Land and Mines Office......
Ridiculous. No number available. Luckily a kind man gave me number. I asked him the procedure of performing the land search. Sure I fainted without people helps.
*A replacement post for 24 Jun 2013
The haze was damn bad. Air Quality Index was shooting high in my area. It was unhealthy status.
*A replacement post for 23 Jun 2013
We prayed for combine censer with ancestors.
Many relatives attended. One of my auntie cried and mum did cry as well.
*A replacement post for 22 Jun 2013
I went to buy fruits with mum in the morning. The grapes were expensive which cost RM17/kg. We met old neighbour and mum told story to her again.
The previous day, I had a dream. I was crying and it was damn sad from my heart in the dream. I also did not sure what was the reason. Perhaps I just missed dad.
*A replacement post for 21 Jun 2013
Colleague accompanied to find commissioner for oath near to working place. The signature was done in a really casual way. I called him and he reached a few minutes later. He signed and stamped the document on the downstair restaurant table. We chatted awhile as I think he wanted to justify I was not cheating.
*A replacement post for 20 Jun 2013
I went to a shopping complex with colleagues for lunch. Unexpectedly, there is a place sells budget vegetarian food. I ordered a curry chicken rice and sugar cane. Rice not really nice. Drink damn expensive.
*A replacement post for 19 Jun 2013
I had a chat with colleagues during lunch in cafeteria. From the conversation, I knew from colleagues that mutual fund agent must deal a lot with the commissioner of oath. Networking is important.
*A replacement post for 18 Jun 2013
Searched for commissioner of oath via the internet......
*A replacement post for 17 Jun 2013
Work as usual. A new staff joined on the day. We had a chat during lunch in cafeteria.
*A replacement post for 16 Jun 2013
Mum went out to settle a lot of things with brother-in-law. Ask god due to frightening issue.
Big niece cried when she got to go back to her home for schooling in the next day.
*A replacement post for 15 Jun 2013
Sister came back from outstation. We went to had our vegetarian dinner in a "new village". The meal was cheap.
*A replacement post for 14 Jun 2013
Mum and I sent the car for braking system check.
At night, I sent mum to relative house. Then she followed them to Buddha temple.
*A replacement post for 13 Jun 2013
I took a half day leave on that day.
Work Done:
1. Changed engine oil.
2. Submitted postmortem application form and made payment.
3. Applied Skim Mesra Usia Emas. (Compassionate Support Scheme for Retiree) - a bit disappointing on their services as I felt that they were playing "taichi".
Vietnam maid came to do house cleaning. She did a lot of cleaning, included air-con filter, fans, windows, doors, tables, floors and etc......
*A replacement post for 12 Jun 2013
Mum and big sister went for facial treatment until a bit late after my working office hour. Perhaps it was a good distraction to avoid mum from thinking of dad.
Again mum and I went to pack for vegetarian fried rice at the same restaurant.
