What should I do? There were just simple matters. Just let it be like that. If I knew you have great perseverance on all these, I rather choose not to buy a new house. I bought it because I want everybody to be happy. Everybody lives happily in a big great house. There were just minor defects that made those surfaces do not look perfect. It won't really affect our living.
Do you know it reflect a scary pictures for me? That's why I chose not to get married at this moment. I hate "WAR". I love you so much. I don't want anyone of you get hurt. Again, I become phobia to women further because of these.
Besides, I don't really sure I am gay or g0y but definitely I am not fully straight. I am attracted to men a lot. Even though I am attracted to women as well, I am not sure whether this is due to family/society influences. Mum, I hope you can let it go. Not only on those simple matters, but also my marriage. You are pushing me further if you become more perseverance on my marriage. I just want to be myself. I feel really tough to pretend myself that is not supposed I am. I am not sure how much and how long I can pretend. I only need your understanding. Please do not urge me to commit a normal marriage that doesn't seem NORMAL for me. I really hope you can let it go. I don't mean to hurt anyone of you.
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