A nice Her

*A replacement post for last Thursday

We were texting to each others via facebook. I felt I was a bit anxious. I was waiting for her reply most of the time. I was eagerly to know more about her. What was it mean? Am I falling in love with her? What is this actually? She has Joey Yung vocal.

Pick with Hundred Miles 谁能百里挑

I was attracted to this program 谁能百里挑 since yesterday. Today I watch it again at Astro AEC Channel. Besides, I watch it via ppstream as well. It is a kind of entertainment program for couples searching and matching. There are a lot of handsome guys and pretty girl in the program. I am wondering those guys and girls were being purposely arranged for the program effects.

This guy and girl really caught my attention. The guy is handsome, nice body built with sexy chest hair and stylist attire and accessories. The girl is pretty, tall, kind of straight forward person and she is an machinery engineer.

 

王豪强

 肖虹

Single?

My old friend sent a personal message to me via facebook. She asked whether I am still single and she wanna introduce a girl to me.

My reply is still pending. Should I accept or reject? I am not ready. My thoughts are fighting. I am interested to know a pretty and nice girl. However, I am afraid of dating a girl. I might not able to sacrifice my time for a girl. It is complicated. It is hard.

Good Wife

Today I feel surprisingly fine to attend a wedding dinner. Perhaps there is no pressure of marriage at this moment since we are busy for house moving. Besides, the wedding dinner atmosphere and pace look considerable standard without silly Q&A between the bride and groom with the emcee.

Wedding dinner is such an expensive gathering dinner with friends that you did not meet for ages. I chatted with my friends about works and career. Unfortunately, relationship matter is a unavoidable topic. I am a bit awkward to talk about it. I think I need to learn on how to deal with it. I need to be strong to face it. 

Sometimes, I feel envy to see couples are getting together and married one by one. I chose to avoid all of these by hiding myself at home. This is to prevent myself from knowing and looking at their lovely relationship directly. I think of getting married if there is a girl who:

1) tolerate on my periodically ignorance
2) stay peacefully with my parents
3) independent on carrying out her own stuffs
4) pretty physically and sexy on bed
5) supportive on whatever I do
6) less responsibility on her family
7) understanding on ignorance
8) less demanding on everything 

Control

*A replacement post for last 4 days

I went to my sister house for an overnight stay on Monday. The reason is to avoid the heavy traffic jam after the school reopens on Tuesday morning.

Sigh, lady is really difficult to handle, including my sister. My brother-in-law came back quite late that night compare to normal day. My sister called him for a lot of times and he did not pick up my sister’s calls. Eventually, he picked up his phone and told my sister that he was taking something from his customer house. My sister showed a little of her temper by that time.

She claimed that she was worried on him. Standard! I used to have such experience before. Obviously, ladies never trust their men. They always tell you that she is worrying about you. However, for me it is too over. Ladies are trying to control their men.

I do not want to jump into this trap again. At this moment, I need my freedom. I hate to be controlled by someone. Ladies in all categories are the same. They like to control their men. Please don’t be like that. Men are human as well. The string will break one day if you pull too tight. Please be more understanding and trust your men.

Love becomes Hate

*A replacement post for yesterday

EX GF: You are not deserved to have anyone loves you. You only love yourself. You do continue to love yourself.

I: ~!@#$%^&*()_+

<Voice in my heart>
In fact, I am just starting to love myself. I should love myself before I can love anyone. I know it is harsh for you but I must to let go. In long term, indeed it is for our own good. I wish we still can be friend. Don't let the love becomes hate.

Break Up

Eventually, I broke up with my girl friend yesterday.

I was still indecisive yesterday until she posted her comment on me to her facebook's wall. I was totally disappointing that she acted in an immature way. No matter how, this is a personal stuff. I don't think it should be broadcasted to people. What is her intention? Perhaps, she feel imbalance that she was being dumped by me in this way. However, it is not the issue of who is dumping who......the reality is we are not compatible......we should move on rather than torturing each others......

I know you hate me. You hate me for not putting effort in maintaining the relationship. However, I did try but I just cannot convinced myself to continue the relationship. I was really uncomfortable in this relationship. Sorry to say that you let me felt more stressful. You held me tighter and I avoided you further. Nobody was willing to tolerate when there was a conflict occurrence. This was repeating again and again. A healthy fight is good but what we had were a lot of deep holes which cannot be recovered forever. Therefore, I chose to end it. I hope you understand.

Lastly, I sincerely hope you can find your true love soon. 

Peace of Mind

Hardly explain on my feeling now. I did not contact with my girl friend for almost 3 days. However, I feel calm and peace of mind at this moment.

Temporarily, I tell myself not to think about our relationship. I need to be alone. 

If following my current feeling, I would say that I want to be single. Without a girl friend., I will feel relieved. I will get my freedom. I will release my burden and responsibility. Importantly, I do not need to suffer in order to maintain this relationship. I think WE will not going to torturing each others if we choose to let go. Am I right?

Happy vs Sad

I am damn happy today as I managed to hang out with my ex-colleague. We went for karaoke singing and hi-tea break. It was quite relaxing and fun.

However, I was being discouraged by my girl friend again. Should I let go? Well, she is good in some aspects but I just feel extremely stressful when together with her. She has rules that a standard boy friend should acts. I doubt so......

I can be truthful about my thoughts but do you think you are readied for these? I don't want to hurt you in this way. Please be understanding. I still need some of my own spaces. I need to breath. I felt tension in my own house. The tension is greater if you are in my house. Could you let me cool down and don't try to spoil your own image/behavior in my eyes?

Wedding Dinner

I just come back from my friend's wedding dinner. I think I am drunk a bit today. However, I think I enjoy myself quite a lot today.

Well, some of my friends are getting married one by one these few years. At the same time, some of them are still single and available. Sometimes, I felt very annoying while attending a wedding dinner, but this time I feel extraordinary good. I am not sure what is the reason.


Marriage is really a big matter to me. Perhaps, I am not readied to get married at this moment. I am still not sure what do I really want actually. Looking, thinking and wandering until now......

Love

* A replacement post for yesterday

I am confusing sometimes. I am not sure whether I am still in love with my girl friend at this moment. Yesterday, we did a phone chat for about half an hour. I was a bit  impatient on the phone call. I did not feel comfortable as she was saying the same things to me again. Did she notice about it? I should tell her.

I feel in love with my girl friend emotionally as she loves me so much and she is understanding (I know I am not a good boyfriend in caring people). However, in the other way round, I feel worry as I am not that attracted to her physical(except her sexy boobs) and extreme behavior(except her understanding). Hopefully, our love may blooms one day!

Love

Today my girl friend asked me for patching back on our relationship. 


Actually, I was quite firm to separate at the beginning when she was insisting that I am the ONLY one who need to change in this fighting scenario. I am not sure what is the reason. Eventually I accepted to be together with her again.


Well, I am thinking now. What is the real reason I still want to patch back with her? Does it due to I really love her? Does it due to I pity on her? Perhaps, I love her more and more now. In fact, I think that she is really love me because she gave her first night to me and begged me to patch back. If I still reject her, seems like I am a bit small-minded.

We have a deal. I have to accompany her more and she cannot get mad to me easily. Hopefully, this relationship can be sustained and I hope we can have a happy and harmony family in the future.

Boyfriend's Responsibility

Boyfriend's Responsibility 
1) Driving (everytime unless you are sick)
2) Paying (meals, movies, tickets, etc......)
3) Planning (date, venue, place, etc......)
4) Remembering (everything from her mouth and your promises to her)
5) Accompanying (call, messaging and dating with committed frequency)


My advice......
If you cannot commit on the above requirements, please do not become a boyfriend. Some ladies have this kind of mindset, please be aware! 

Immature

Why you can be so immature? We need to discuss face to face in order to resolve our problem. I really do not understand why you are not willing to do so? You are trying to avoid the reality. You don't know how to treat this issue in a mature way? Discussion face to face is a must.

You keep on chasing me for an answer? You should aware that a relationship is not a individual matter. It is a two people matter. You keep on saying that I need to change my attitude, if I did not commit then you will go and our relationship will over. 

Why you can treat this issue like this? Apparently in your mindset, I am the one who has to change only in order to continue this relationship. Perhaps you are over confident to yourself. Do you ever think you should change your attitude as well? Your uncontrolled bad temper and "breakup" phrase are the obstacles of our relationship continuation. I told you many times before that we should discuss in a proper manner before fighting and quarreling. This is an adult way to resolve problem. Did you listen? If we are going to get married one day, is it going to have such consequences again and again?

I think both of us have to admit that we are not compatible enough. You and I are totally in a conflict perspective. Nobody is willing to tolerate on this. Actually in our previous fight, the conclusion was both of us have to put effort to make the relationship move further. However, at the end, we are still wander in the same point. We feel that we put effort, but in reality we are not. Now you are still insisting to get the answer from me. This is not an issue of YES or NO. I think it is the way of resolving problem. Of course we couldn't avoid quarrel and conflict, but how do we resolve it? Discuss in a proper manner! You just couldn't make it. What to do?

Compatible

I know that all couples do quarrel and fight among each other once a while. However, I think it is very important for a couple to be compatible enough. They should be able to exist together without problems and conflict. They should able to have a harmonious relationship and well-suited with each other.

Do you think is it ok  for a couple to have very critical quarrel for frequency=3times/12months? I don't think this is a good sign. I was a bit frustrated on this relationship. I foresee my future will be a trouble one if we are continuing to be together.


In fact, I am a very stubborn person. I am a peace supporter. I am a high expectation guy who is not confident on myself. Well, she is a bad temper person. She is like a volcano which can exploded critically in a particular of time. Seems like she is quite confident to herself.

Today, we have a conflict again. She felt that I did not respect her due to I did not accompany, call and sms her enough. In fact, she demotivated me to move further in this relationship. She should make herself look more attractive. The key point is her body and attitude. I was demotivated due to her body and her bad temper. She should discuss in a proper manner with me first. She shouldn't tell me about those "no need to stay together" phrase to me. It is really hurt and demotivating me. fxxk.

Sexy Figure

*Too weak to keep posting for last two days. Allergic, don't play play......food? bug? dust?

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