Sunday, 19 August 2012

Crying Raya

Today is Hari Raya (Malay Celebration Day). It is a public holiday and a happy celebration day within the country. However, I am really upset today.

I was being scolded since in the early morning. Mum scolded me that I did not taking good care and responsibility to parents. I was really depressed in the whole day. I cried silently in my room. The heart was painful. The tears were automatically rolled down from my eyes.

I am lost nowadays. I feel that I lost my passion on living. I am isolating myself from other people. What can I do? I am not even know how to tell myself who am I and what do I prefer. I am tired. I was being urged to set up my own family by parents again and again. I am really tired to listen to their uttering. I thought of running away from my home. Perhaps an abroad study or working. I don't how far I can withstand on these pressure. I am going to collapse one day. Please give me direction god!

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